Tula.

Tula is my hamster...my dead hamster. Some stupid girl on my floor thought she was a rat. Though rats aren't nearly as cute, as clean, as small...she thought she was a rat. Not to mention rats have ugly, long tails and hamster don't. She's in college..wtf? So aparently Tula was chilling in her room and she shooed her out...and she called a friend and realized Tula was too chubby to fit to get into other people's room through the gap under our dorm doors - they were able to corner her and kick her to dead. Needless to say...I was a wreck when I lost her but gained hope that I would find her. I went to petsmart and bought her a nice cage and also saw that the last female from her litter was still there. So I bought her sister - Chub. I was hoping the scent of Chub would attract Tula as well as the trail of seeds I made leading into my room and into her old box. But it was too late - I was a wreck again to find out she was killed and just how she was killed.

I'm getting sad again:( I'll stop here.

But just for the record - This week I failed my microbiology test, lost my hamster, got hired at bebe, and had lunch on a mountain. Neato!

Never know.

From the sweet, deep throats of the night flower.
The moon has nothing to be sad about,

- Sylvia Plath, Edge

when you feel caught in the middle of your heart and your mind it's almost always a no win situation. you don't know which is which - is the voice telling you to leave the voice of your hopeful heart or your stubborn head? you'll never know because you know you always want to believe in that "love conquers all" which assumes its the voice of the heart that triumphs.

so what do you do? you take risks, make mistakes, find yourself going in circles. nothing is ever wrong in life. things happen for a reason. it's just that sometimes what happens is not always happy...not always what you want...not always what you expected...not always what you deserved. but thats life. so get with it.

Day one!

christie lured me into this blogspot shindig...what to say...?

"It'll take the right guy to make you wanna take that risk."

it's not copyrighted but if you try to claim my words you'll feel shitty inside that you're not original!!! but anyway, it's 240am and im pooped and have to wake up early so...bye!