it's december 7th 10pm

i really should be studying...*shrug*

i decided to google myself and found my old xanga. i was retarded and in huge need of a slap in the face for how stupid i sounded. haha..the entry that stuck out in my mind was thanksgiving. i talked about sleeping..and being too lazy to cook. so my mom and i went to automart to rent movies then drove through mcdonalds. i can't remember why we had a holiday like that. so....sad....but it was me and mama:)

looking back on things..especially after that dreadful xanga..i realize how much growing up ive done. how much more i need to go through. and with that i see less and less people in my life. dont get me wrong. its a blessing. you save money on christmas gifts:P you have less birthday's to keep track of and less guilt when you miss one. basically...less shit. and less shit is a damn good life.

May 20, 2009

853pm

aaron got his wisdom taken out! his teeth that is! i been working at bebe for about a month now. i love and hate it. love the discount and getting spiffied up for work - hate the commission and the bishes that come out of working commission. yes people, bebe is on commission so no they're not just "really nice." i still don't like the concept and it shows in my stats. while my coworkers are selling around 1400 on a bad day im probably selling around 700. i dont think i fit in with commission:/ plus the heels are killer!!!

christen graduated college. bachelors of science in biology:) yeeeey!!! i lost my chance to get into the nursing program:( by 8%. close..but not enough. so now im on nuclear medicine track which im actually excited about. erin..radiologist. vs erin..nurse. so its all goooood:)

i've found out a lot of crazy ISH about people who breathe the same las vegas air we do. thats the closest i'll consider them now. not friends. not ex-friends. not hi and bye friends. no...they just simply take up air that i could be using for myself:) lol jk. but yea...if you ever get a hold of this...go to hell:) have a safe trip!

Tula.

Tula is my hamster...my dead hamster. Some stupid girl on my floor thought she was a rat. Though rats aren't nearly as cute, as clean, as small...she thought she was a rat. Not to mention rats have ugly, long tails and hamster don't. She's in college..wtf? So aparently Tula was chilling in her room and she shooed her out...and she called a friend and realized Tula was too chubby to fit to get into other people's room through the gap under our dorm doors - they were able to corner her and kick her to dead. Needless to say...I was a wreck when I lost her but gained hope that I would find her. I went to petsmart and bought her a nice cage and also saw that the last female from her litter was still there. So I bought her sister - Chub. I was hoping the scent of Chub would attract Tula as well as the trail of seeds I made leading into my room and into her old box. But it was too late - I was a wreck again to find out she was killed and just how she was killed.

I'm getting sad again:( I'll stop here.

But just for the record - This week I failed my microbiology test, lost my hamster, got hired at bebe, and had lunch on a mountain. Neato!

Never know.

From the sweet, deep throats of the night flower.
The moon has nothing to be sad about,

- Sylvia Plath, Edge

when you feel caught in the middle of your heart and your mind it's almost always a no win situation. you don't know which is which - is the voice telling you to leave the voice of your hopeful heart or your stubborn head? you'll never know because you know you always want to believe in that "love conquers all" which assumes its the voice of the heart that triumphs.

so what do you do? you take risks, make mistakes, find yourself going in circles. nothing is ever wrong in life. things happen for a reason. it's just that sometimes what happens is not always happy...not always what you want...not always what you expected...not always what you deserved. but thats life. so get with it.

Day one!

christie lured me into this blogspot shindig...what to say...?

"It'll take the right guy to make you wanna take that risk."

it's not copyrighted but if you try to claim my words you'll feel shitty inside that you're not original!!! but anyway, it's 240am and im pooped and have to wake up early so...bye!